Zero of them have just piqued my interest so much that right after I drop her off I feel the urge to call her to talk some more. Let me go on ahead and add that I’ve never been in a serious relationship before. The fact that I haven’t felt any sort of chemistry with the girls that I’ve dated has started to worry me, especially because of the fact that over half of them I have many things in common with. I’ve been asked by a few of my female friends, “What do you look for in a girl?” and I can honestly say I don’t know anymore. If I don’t become attracted to the girls who like the stuff that I like, then how am I going to feel anything for someone who doesn’t?

So, my question is am I not giving these girls enough of a chance for me to begin to feel something, or should I actually feel a strong attraction immediately?

Anyway, I was curious as to what he was looking at, so I started just going through and looking for different links that could potentially be porn. From there, I got quite the surprise. There was sites related to meeting people in our area for casual sex and I saw that “someone” had searched for prostitutes in our area as well. Also, a telltale sign that it was him, is that he’s latino and is far more comfortable in Spanish, and some searches in google for prostitution and porn were in Spanish.

Of course I confronted him about this and woke him up at 4 in the morning because I felt I was completely justified. He was all pissed off at the beginning and said it wasn’t him and he wanted to go back to sleep. I was pissed so I didn’t let him and forced him to have this conversaton with me. We ended up talking for 4 more hours, and he was in tears at the end trying to tell me that he loves and that it wasn’t him. I of course am dead sure that it was him and now I don’t know what to do. During our talk he was trying to tell me that his brother was using his computer so it could have been him, but a counter poiint to that is that we moved from California a couple months ago, and his brother was using the computer then, but the sites are all in Saint Louis, where we live now. It’s not at all disconcerting to me that he looks at porn, although he says he doesn’t, but it bother me EXTREMELY me that prostitution was searched for in our area and that on craigslist adult gigs were also looked at.

I don’t really know what to think at this point (I found all this stuff 2 days ago), because up until now he has shown me a great deal of commitment and I had used his computer a lot before and there weren’t any porn sites at all. In terms of commitment, I go to school in Saint Louis was home on summer vacaton in California when we met. When I was supposed to go back to school he didn’t want to be away from me, so he came along, leaving friends, work, and everything else behind. He is the sweetest boyfriend I’ve ever had in terms of doing the little things for me. It just doesn’t make sense to me that it was him, but all the evidence supports the fact that it was. I definitely need help because I’ve been a complete wreck since I found all that. Since I don’t know anything about porn and if it is possible that he was looking at one site and then some weird link connected him to a singles site I don’t want to break up with him and end the best relationship I’ve ever been in.

I don’t know the authors name because I just found this site 10 minutes ago, but I would like for the author of “What every woman should know about internet porn” to give me some feedback because he seems to know about porn sites and how they work.

Thank you so much for your time and advice.